The silent cry

Yes, deep down she has a silent cry only those who really care and God understands..

but whatever it is.

She choose to let it go and let God have control.

In this, she came across something which she agrees..

'Dont depend on man to make you happy, cos only God can'

which is really true..

Now, dont get her wrong..she doesnt mean stop loving others.

But instead of thinking if she is happy, ask herself if God's happiness is shine through her to others not! :)
Lots of unhappy things happened to her these few weeks.

She keeps wandering and wandering.

But maybe what SHE told her was right..

Maybe cos her group of friends/bros&sis are too close..

Too close until friction and conflicts occur.
She feels that sometimes it is :

fellowship more than worship, gathering more than family. Hanging more than unity.

A group that discourages more than encourages, not only by verbal, actions too.

A group that is all about themselves as individuals/groups and not as ONE.
A group that just hang out and no genuine care and love involved.

Sometimes, she is naggy and maybe a cold blanket, she agrees.

But she just hope that the group could be more warm, cosy, loving, caring, looking out for one another, encouraging(spiritually and in faith)

Maybe she tried..but not her best.

Maybe..once the conflict is resolved, they might not be the same anymore?

Prayerfully, the aftermath will be good, and improvements seen.

The one that she really loves dont really understands her.

She dont need just a pair of listening ears, she needs a piece of kindness and advice.

Sometimes she just need someone to walk beside her after hearing her out, and not walk away to laugh and joke with others.

The silent cry she thought this one will hear cos 'it' really cares.

But this one was too busy caring about itself and its entertainment, it neglects her..

The one she really loves/like, dont really talk nor understands her well.

She wants 'it' to be closer to her, to be her good and close friend.

To hear her troubles, to be there to encourage her with God's words.

To just hold her hands and say 'everything is gonna be okay as long as we trust the Lord'

To embrace her with warmth after a cold cry.

The one she really trusts and talk to, understands her even in not so long/short period of time

'It' listens and give good and godly advices.

'It' guides and leads her to the Lord.

'It' prays and love her just the way she is.

'It' teaches her to be a better person and leader.

'It' helps her to be more open with sharing.

'It' is there with her no matter what time it is, just to hear her problems.

Will not reveal the identities, but people who really understands me(I guess not many) will know who. :)
But above all, it is the Trinity who really put all things together so I learn and grow!
Whatever it is, Father, I trust everything into Your hands, teach me what You want me to learn.

A sidenote:

1) I'm someone who likes advice when I share a problem.

2) I'm someone who likes an advantage/benefit when I share my secret.

So, I am who I am! We each got different love languages.